Dec 2012 -
So here is an update for everyone - after peeing on at least a dozen sticks, having a series of blood work done...
We are pregnant!
I know my last post was a bit ambiguous, but I really didn't have my thoughts together yet. And it still feels a little surreal; we have done so much and been through so much over the past year and a half. And I honestly had no expectation for this last cycle - my follicle was small, my lining not getting any thicker - basically we were gearing up for another step up in treatment. The doctor's office discussed it as "just in case you don't get pregnant this time" but I was mentally already there. Since the AS diagnosis and all the procedures, nothing about my cycle is the same as before so I partially took the first test to make sure I wasn't missing a day to start the next round of treatment. I set it down and went about the evening - and that second line was so faint I wasn't sure I was seeing it. I asked Chris what he saw - 2 lines. So I took another, and the next morning another. Even after calling the doctor and having some blood work I took another...and the lines kept appearing, even getting darker. What do you know, they work?!
Trying to figure this all out really started late summer of 2011 with a series of trial/error that "should do the trick." Each failure convinced me more that something wasn't right. Now its been almost a year since the idea of Asherman's was presented to us. Not to mention the emotions of mourning children that would never come to be because nothing more could be done for us - the suggestion we consider surrogacy or adoption or make ourselves satisfied with one pregnancy. The series of procedures, medications, evaluations, complications, insurance battles, innumerable question marks and research upon research upon research - it has been quite the experience.
And now here we are. Of course you all will be getting this in a couple weeks - it seems too fragile to put out there entirely right now. I realize it wouldn't change the outcome, and our doctors are quite happy with the lab work - but I can't take a full breath quite yet. Now we wait for the magic US that will hopefully show us the little bean's heartbeat - and only then will I fully exhale.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
A Reflective Time
Wow, apparently I've really not been on top of things! In the attempt to avoid having nothing to post, I've posted nothing. Which is disappointing really because Lydia is hysterical, getting more so everyday. In fact just tonight she informs me "I'm pretty funny mommy" and shortly after that gave me a time out because "that's not okay" - although I'm not sure what I did that wasn't ok yet. At least I know she listens! When her daddy left to go snowmobiling, and she was informed that he was on a trip, she tells me that "we should follow him" and that she is going on a trip too. This is in between breaking into any variety of songs on a regular basis. She serenades us quite enthusiastically. She has been literally jumping in to swimming - loving her weekly "lessons" with Teacher Jo and the boys. Which also translates in an interesting way to bath time - with dunks and back floats and swimming all over the tub. Look out Min-aqua-bats, here she comes this summer!
Christmas was magical for her, which made it that much more magical for us. The ooooh's and aaaah's and Merry Christmas and Happy New Yr Mommy were priceless. She was very excited about both Santa Claus and Baby Jesus's birthday - mixing a Happy Birthday in with a few Jingle Bells and Deck the Halls. I think the best was her pure delight in seeing the lights go on the tree every day, and the beautiful angel on top which was captivating for her. She loved opening cards and seeing all the pictures almost as much as opening presents. And thankfully so far she loves giving as much as receiving.
As for an update on the Asherman's front - the last several months have been multiple rounds of roughly the same processes. Medications, followed by hormones, followed by lining checks/imaging, followed by injections - there have been some variations along the way but all attempts to do something helpful especially with a lining that has somewhat recovered, but hasn't seemed to want to completely normalize. Basically all the "bald" spots have filled in, but the overall thickness doesn't seem to increase. Apparently my lining likes to maintain itself in the mid-5 mm range. Dr. Olive has a new option each time so we're working on it. Unfortunately some treatments I need counteract others, which leads to an interesting push-pull of timing and medications, but overall I have been telling myself at least we still have options.
In the quiet of the house, with the dog laying on my feet and the fireplace going tonight, I am thinking of all the wonderful people in our lives. The support and love from everyone around us on even a daily basis is amazing really, and I don't think we (or others even) take the time to appreciate it enough. So on this eve after Christmas - I wish a Merry Merry to all, a blessed 2013 and many thanks!
Christmas was magical for her, which made it that much more magical for us. The ooooh's and aaaah's and Merry Christmas and Happy New Yr Mommy were priceless. She was very excited about both Santa Claus and Baby Jesus's birthday - mixing a Happy Birthday in with a few Jingle Bells and Deck the Halls. I think the best was her pure delight in seeing the lights go on the tree every day, and the beautiful angel on top which was captivating for her. She loved opening cards and seeing all the pictures almost as much as opening presents. And thankfully so far she loves giving as much as receiving.
As for an update on the Asherman's front - the last several months have been multiple rounds of roughly the same processes. Medications, followed by hormones, followed by lining checks/imaging, followed by injections - there have been some variations along the way but all attempts to do something helpful especially with a lining that has somewhat recovered, but hasn't seemed to want to completely normalize. Basically all the "bald" spots have filled in, but the overall thickness doesn't seem to increase. Apparently my lining likes to maintain itself in the mid-5 mm range. Dr. Olive has a new option each time so we're working on it. Unfortunately some treatments I need counteract others, which leads to an interesting push-pull of timing and medications, but overall I have been telling myself at least we still have options.
In the quiet of the house, with the dog laying on my feet and the fireplace going tonight, I am thinking of all the wonderful people in our lives. The support and love from everyone around us on even a daily basis is amazing really, and I don't think we (or others even) take the time to appreciate it enough. So on this eve after Christmas - I wish a Merry Merry to all, a blessed 2013 and many thanks!
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