Surgery - Take 2 - part 1

Once we had everything in line to schedule surgery I so was disappointed yet again.  I called with my medical approvals, heart testing, clearance from insurance - all of it in place, to learn the first opening wasn't until the end of July - after all the waiting we've done so far, the end of July felt like forever away!  Lucky for us there was a cancellation, so I was actually able to be scheduled this week.  I had intended to update a post the night before surgery - my mind was going a mile a minute, I couldn't sleep.  It was a combination of excitement and dread, and a lot of nervousness.   Of needing to temper any hope with a healthy dash of realism.  I've been called a pessimist on occasion, to which I respond that I'm just a realist - hope for the best, plan for the worst - that may sound depressing, and certainly not any fun, but I suppose it functions somewhat as a shield, a safety net if you will.  It's a lot gentler of a drop if you're already halfway there.  Somehow I eventually went to bed, slept light, woke up early, got the baby to daycare and checked in Preop for Surgery - take 2.